Club contest over. Hindi ako nanalo, na disqualified pa ko. Overtime.
Ok lang naman. Nakakatawa lang na sasali rin pala ang mentee ko sa isa pang category tas sya rin na overtime.
Ayoko talaga ng natatalo pero this time, ok lang talaga. Nalulungkot lang ako na hindi ako magkakaroon ng excuse para makasama ka.
Pero kahit yun, ok na rin talaga. Pero syempre, gusto pa rin talaga kitang kasama.
Alam mo ba yung hunch? Yung madalas tinatawag nateng "kutob". Common yun sa nga babae including me. I remember back in the day when cellphones weren't a thing yet, i would always know if bff was visiting our house because of this hunch. Same goes if it's nephil or anyone i have strong connections to.
This hunch also makes me foresee the outcome of things. I remember very well the times when i thought i won't get something i badly wanted and i felt this pull in my gut then ended up getting that thing despite the apparent impossibility.
There is also that other kind of pull where I'd get the opposite. I don't remember this ever failing.
Just a few hours ago, i felt a pull. A pull i recognized as that of defeat and i have a bad feeling about this.
Has anyone felt something like this before? If you're able to fight the hunch and get the opposite of what it's telling you, please, please, let me know.
Then i watched the other boy slipping away.
There i was pretending i don't really care.
I hate lying. If you lie in your actions, then that's still a lie. I wish i have the courage to act the truth out though.
I already told the Heavens that i don't want to lose you.
Kaya sige, bahala na.