Nag punta ako ng bank to deposit some check. Nag grocery ng konti at nag-uwi ng konting pasalubong sa bahay. Then, when my niece got back home from school, after thanking me for yhe the pasalubong, she asked:

Niece: wala ka work?

Tita: di ba nag resign na ko?

Niece: resign? Kelan ka mag wowork ulet?

Tita: hindi na.

Niece: *long pause* paano na tayo bibili ng kotse?

Tita: don't worry, yayaman parin si Tita kahit di mag work.

Ugh, that look of worry on her face when she finally realized that I don't have work anymore was quite heartbreaking.

Coincidentally, nag message din yung former workmate ko. Nalaman nyang nag resign ako and was offering me a job na 100% percent wfh. I told him, I don't plan to work anymore, at balak ko nalang mag artista.

Haaah. Kaya ko to.

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Mom's attending some birthday party happening at a private resort in Laguna. Overnight, and she wants me to go with her. I already told her I can't because I need to take care of the cats. She talked to my sister-in-law and asked her if she can do the job just for the weekend, and she agreed. Ayoko talaga pumunta, pero drinamahan na ako ng nanay ko, so I guess I'm going. 

Tita will go too. She's bringing her stepson. I hope she won't push me into the dude, because that guy is like an older cousin to me. We're actually cousins by law, aren't we? Nakakaumay.

Well, whatever. 

Sabi nila, if gusto mong dumami ang pera mo, you've got to expand, not only your knowledge on your craft, but also your network. Tsaka gusto ko rin naman magswimming, kaya oh sya, sasama na.

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Ang bilis ng araw. 11 days na kaagad ang lumipas at wala parin akong nagagawa para matupad ko ang plano kong kumita ng 1 million pesos  monthly.

Basta. Kaya ko to.

Posted by cinderellaareus on March 11, 2024 at 04:30 PM in 月曜日 | 2 OK...

Ika anim na araw ko na bilang unemployed. 

Before I got that job I recently left, I remember asking God for it, and promised I'd give 10% back to Him as tithes.

Mom told me na since wala na kong trabaho, I shouldn't give anymore, and that God would understand. But I wanted to keep my side of the bargain until my final pay.

Nakakatuwa. When I tried to calculate the budget weeks back, math says, hindi kasya. But for some reason, parang ang dami dami ko pa ring pera. Lol. 

Hindi mo talaga maa outgive ang langit. Thank you, po.

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So I met my friend, LA, when I returned the laptop to work last week. We had plans to go to Japan for the Toastmasters Discon happening in Tokyo since last year pa. Nag cancel ako when I decided to resign sa work. Nalaman ko from LA that she was invited to attend a Philharmonic concert. Yung Japanese na kakilala nya will be performing as a baritone. The first time I've attended a Philharmonic concert was in Manila. I liked it a lot. Ang lakas makasosyal. I so badly wanted to go, kasi it's Philharmonic, plus, it's in Japan. Di, ba ang astig, like, wtf.

Pero syempre, wala akong trabaho, plus, 11 days yung binook ni LA. She told me I can share with her hotel for free since for two naman yung room. Like, gah, seriously. Gusto ko pumunta.

So, nag usap kami ni God. I asked for guidance if I should go. Kasi, sa totoo lang, I still have some money. Though nasa stock market kasi, and I'd like to keep the money there sana as much as possible. So, idk.

Sabi ko sa Diyos, if my tita, who owes me some money, will get to pay me this week, tutuloy ako sa Japan.

Then, poof! Few days back, she actually paid me!!!

So ayon, nag book ako ng flight sa Tokyo on May. Tokwa, I can't wipe the smile off my face. Nag aalala ako na baka maharang ako ng io since wala akong trabaho, pero saka ko na siguro yun iisipin.

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My days of unemployment have been unremarkable so far.

I wake up at 7am. Feed and clean up my cats. I cleaned our room. Sometimes I clean the bathroom a little too. I used to hate cleaning, but I really can't stand the mess. Kung pisikal ang pag-uusapan, feeling ko mas pagod ako ngayon, kesa nung meron pa akong trabaho.

But I don't have any complaints. I love the simple and peaceful life I have right now. Soon, kailangan ko humanap ng ways to earn money, pero I seriously don't want to be an employee anymore. I'm spending the 1st few weeks of my unemployment to clear my mind and think of the next step. I'm smart and talented, kaya alam kong kaya ko to.

Gusto ko na bago matapos ang April 2024, kumikita na ko ng 1,000,000 pesos monthly.

Gusto ko na may ma meet kaming Japanese na romantic interest pag punta namin sa Japan.

Posted by cinderellaareus on March 6, 2024 at 06:31 PM in 水曜日 | HA...

Had a meeting with the HR last night. She's quite a bitch. Pero okay lang.

In 3 working days, tapos na ang lahat ng ito. I don't know why, but my mind seems convinced na hindi ako maghihirap. Lol.

I feel generally at peace. Though from time to time, dumadalaw yung fear at anxiety para sa future. Sinubukan akong kumbinsihin ng HR to stay, though sobrang nakakapikon yung mga sinasabi nya, but I don't think it could've made any difference sakali mang mas maayos nyang sinabi.

Ang daming sinasabi ng mga tao sa paligid. Parang ganito rin nung nag decide akong huminto sa pagiging Engineer. Alam ko may point sila, and I don't hate them. They're entitled to their own thoughts and opinions. I don't really mind that much even if they run their mouths. They're not entirely wrong.

But I want to take charge of my life. At the end of the day, I have my best interest in mind. And I want to believe that this time too, magagawa kong gawing even better ang buhay ko sa kabila ng difficult and unpopular decisions na ginagawa ko.

Maybe this time, I can say na "kaya ko to" and actually mean it.

Walang nakakaalam sa future, but I'm going to do my best.

Since I'm feeling kinda lonely, parang gusto kong mag focus in expanding my network. But just stepping outside the house requires money. Ugh. Bahala na. I'll find a way.

Gusto ko by March, marami na ulet akong pera, so we can go to Dubai and travel with Tita. Gusto ko to drop by in Japan first, kasi magko close na daw ata yung Gundam factory sa Yokohama. Gusto ko sana makapunta muna dun. Though meron pa rin naman Gundam sa Odaiba. I should've gone there kung di lang sana ako nagkanda ligaw ligaw sa Kamakura nung nag Japan ako May last year. Haaaa, I miss Japan so bad.

Ang weird, you know. My love for Japan had always felt like an unrequited love. I always ache and long for it, but even when I'm there, it always feel so far a way. The longing goes on, and it never gets satisfied. Ang weird no? Baka kaka anime at manga ko to.

Sana maging mabait ang 2024 sa akin.

Sana maging mabait ang 2024 sa ating lahat.

Posted by cinderellaareus on February 23, 2024 at 11:59 AM in 木曜日 | HA...

5 working days left. The manager sent me a message asking if I can extend another 15 days, wfh. I told him I need to move on and plan my next step, so I have to decline.

I have knowledge transfer in less than an hour. A meeting right after that, then another meeting with the HR tomorrow. 

It has started to sink in, and I feel like panicking. Ano nang gagawin ko pag wala na kong trabaho???

Hindi ko alam. Ayoko pa rin i-retract yung resignation ko, or kahit mag extend. 40 k lang ang pera ko, at 60 days pa daw after kong ma kompleto yung exit clearance ko bago ko makuha yung final pay. With my final pay, I can scrape by for another 3 months maybe without working. Kaso kailangang kong pagkasyahin yung 40k for over 60 days. I give 20k monthly to my Mom, the cat-related expenses are around 10k. Syempre hindi kasya. Hahaha.

Bahala na.

Kaya ko to.

Posted by cinderellaareus on February 21, 2024 at 02:04 PM in 水曜日 | HA...
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