cinderellaareus

Hahhh. So, my short-lived romance has ended.

I wonder if I should've negotiated my terms instead of ending it altogether. I tried messaging other people, but it didn't feel as fun and as natural as it was with him. Why did I end it nga? Was I just running away again? Naiyak rin ako ng very slight. Naalala ko nung grade 1 ako, inaway ko yung kaklase ko, tas ako yung umiyak.

I should've let him show me the 6.2. But it's fine. 

Were men this boring to talk to before? Maybe I should allow myself a few days off from this whole goal-setting thing.

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Papalapit na ang Japan trip, pero wala pa ring nadadagdag sa pera ko, puro bawas lang. I don't want to sell my stocks sana. Sumali kaya ako sa game show? Ugh, still not enough. What should I do.

Nag self-publish ako ng coloring books online. Kanina ko lang natanggap yung notice na napublish na. I made them during weekends. I made 3, yet only 2 notifications came. I wonder what happened to the other one. I'm working on another one. Ipo post nalang. Was too lazy to open the laptop today.

I was at Watsons earlier. Ngayon ko lang nalaman na 45 pesos pala ang isang sachet ng hair mask. 45 pesos for 1 time use?? Omg. I used to not mind the price. Nagulat nga ako na yung ginagamit ko palang bulak for my face e 99 pesos. Jeez, magkano lang yung totoong bulak.

Ugh, I can't even buy lip gloss. Nakakaiyak. Hahaha.

Haaaaah.

Sa totoo lang, hindi pa rin ako nagsisisi for resigning. Pero sana soon, I can get back to my old lifestyle. 

Haaaaah.

I miss that pervert. Lol. I wish I get to meet someone like him again. Ang weird, I actually ask for someone with the same specifications, yung height, age difference, and even the 6.2! Hindi rin naman talaga ako nag sisisi. But I'm thinking maybe I should've negotiated my terms instead of just easily letting go. I mean, he's not a bad guy, and we have chemistry,  and I do like him. Pero okay lang. I mean, anong gagawin ko?

Haaaaah.

Andami pang more pressing things to do. I stopped doing everything else na hindi pasok sa 4 goals na naset ko for 6 months. Halfway through April, pero wala parin talagang progress.

I pray for things to get so much better very very very soon.

cinderellaareus

Apat na goals to focus on for the next 6 months based sa activity my 4-hour work week book ni Tim Ferris.

1. Buy 8-seater car (Innova)

2. Find a hot and sexy boyfriend 

3. Lose over 15 kilos weight 

4. Travel to Korea with parents

Bale sa computation ko, kailangan kong kumita ng over 400k para ma achieve yan in 6 months. I still don't have a job. I don't plan on getting back to the corporate world. Considering that I don't like people very much, ayoko ring magtayo ng business. So nag iisip ako fully-automated source of income. Yung hindi ko kailangan magmanage ng tao, or better yet, hindi ako kaylangan at all, for the business to run. Tim Ferriss says it's possible. Nakakainis. Gusto kong maging masipag in working smart.

To start getting the goal, need daw ng first step. My first step for goal number 2 is to create a dating profile. Tapos, message at least 5 men na type ko. Kaso sa sobrang tamad ko, I changed it into 1 man per day. I only reply once to twice daily. He used to just let me be, until I accepted his invite on IG. He's starting to be a little more impatient. He said I look like I'm in my 20s daw. I told him I look normal. The guy actually look more matured than his age. I guess it's an Asian thing. My friend, LA, is 42, but she can still be mistaken to be in her late 20s. 

To prevent myself from running away, I keep reassuring myself that I'm just looking for a boyfriend, not marriage partner. I can't get married yet. Lalo't wala akong stable source of income.

Speaking of source of income, my BL page in FB received an invite for a bonus program 4 days ago. Yung mga non-reels and non-stories ko daw will earn money depende sa number of reach and interactions. I only have 2.6k followers, but my reach this week was about 67k. Huge chunk of which e galing sa post before I signed up for the program. So far, for the last 4 days, I already earned—drumroll please—2.43 dollars! Lol. Malayo layo pa ko sa target monthly income na over 400k.

I've been receiving emails from companies, and I even received a call from a job offer kahit di naman ako nag-aapply. Iniisip na ka pag wala na kaming makain, I can always go back to the corporate world. Pero sana talaga, hindi ko na kailanganin pang bumalik.

Haaaaa. 

Ang hirap hindi mag-alala. Eventhough I still have more than enough money to survive, nakakatakot parin gumastos. Wala rin kasing pumapasok na pera. Puro palabas. Because of worrying, madalas na badtrip ako.

Haaaaa.

I need to earn something soon.

Since hindi kailangan ng pera yung goal number 2, sana nga, kahit yun, ma achieve ko.