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5:37pm and I'm still here.

Mom went to SM with my brother and his family, without feeding my cats. Huhu. I asked her to feed them as I needed to leave early.  I actually fed them before leaving. But they're supposed to get fed again by 12nn. Kawawa naman ang mga pusa ko. TT

I'm kinda having 2nd thoughts about this job. It's Hybrid daw. 3 days wfh, 2 days onsite. Tas 10 hr shift including 1 hr lunch and 30 mins break, so 8.5 hrs work everyday, but still. 

Hindi ko alam kung matatanggap ako. All I know is that I really need money now.

Sabi ng nakilala ko dito sa hub, naniniwala daw sya na pag hindi sya natanggap, ibig sabihin, may something better na naghihintay para sa kanya. I believe that too.

For now, I wanna go home and feed my poor cat. Knowing my brother, they'll probably leave the mall untill closing. Tokwa, kawawa naman ang pusa ko. Huhu.

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So, I'm sitting at a recruitment hub for a JP hiring event.

A few seats from me, there are people talking fluently in Japanese. 

I like this company. I want to get in.

Bahala ka na, Universe. 

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Dad has been wanting XO Hennessey for as long as can remember. For the longest time, I've been checking the wine section of SM. It used to be 8k pesos. Now it's around 13k. I couldn't afford it back when it was 8k. I'm pretty sure I could afford it back when I was still working in my previous company. I should've bought it back when I still can afford it.

I love looking at expensive liquors. I can't drink much, but I like how they look so luxurious. I want to build a bar in my house one day. I want to have pretty liquor glasses of designs appropriate for every kind of liquor. I actually bought a stem less wine glass before. I still have it. It looks so cute, it can't stand upright, always twirling like a spinning top.

I want to collect luxury liquors and pretty liquor glasses. But before that, I'm gonna buy Dad XO Hennessey first.

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I sold a total of 8 items from my shop today. It's the biggest I number in a while, so I'm really happy.

Thanks, Universe. Please give me more. 

Please give me a quick and easy 1 million pesos also.

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I marked my calendar with FJ for days that I'm gonna find job, SJ for days I'm going study Japanese, then TH for days off/reading BL for content for my Facebook page. I put stars on dates when I can't perform any of those three.

I work real hard these days, you know.

This week, 3 days were marked FJ. I spent 3 days seriously sending out applications, pero walang pumansin sakin.

It doesn't help that my language skills seem to be getting rusty. And heck, I really need money.

Ang hirap hindi panghinaan ng loob. Sa ngayon, I just do whatever I can at the moment. Taking it one day at a time.

Hindi pala nakakaproud na you're turning 40 and broke. Tas single ka pa. Lol.

Sa totoo lang, wala akong pake sa ibang bagay ngayon other than money.

This time too, I want to have the best possible outcome. 

I want to earn even more than I used to from my previous job.

I want to have enough time for my business and hobbies, my cats and my family, and having enough time to sleep on top of that.

I want to travel again. And I want to bring Mom and Dad with me.

Tas gusto ko ulet kuhanin si Ate Neneng as our helper para hindi na mahirapan si Mama.

Gusto ko ulet mag-ipon at palaguin ulet ang stock portfolio ko.

Gusto kong kumain ulet ng masarap. Gusto kong bumalik ulit sa Okada.

Gusto ko ulet bumili ng bagong damit. I'll buy some for Mom too.

Tas maraming cat food.

At bagong cat tower.

Bagong cellphone at bagong laptop.

Tas gusto ko ng rin sarili kong printer.

Gusto ko na yumaman ulit.

Yung mas mayaman pa.

Yung mayaman, masaya, at malaya.

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Today, I woke up will multiple violation notifications on Facebook. Said I can no longer monetize my page. This is one of my main sources of income since I've been unemployed. 

Haaaaa. Will they take down the page? IDK. It took me 2 years to monetize, so wtf.

Haaaaa. I don't feel so much. It's not that I can feel angry. They own Facebook. They have all the right to restrict me. Well, whatever.

Life's really tough right now, but let's keep going.

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Apparently, Trump has a thing for Canada now? I mean, who wouldn’t? Just look at how thicc this country is. And by thicc, I mean the absurdly inflated grocery prices. Seriously, $14 a pound for red Thai chili peppers? $600k for a shack held together by duct tape and despair? That’s some premium thiccness right there.

But honestly, that orange, rat-faced pig has to be deep in Russia’s pockets with the circus act he’s pulling. I just hope there are still some sane adults left in the White House to hold the line. Sheesh.

Meanwhile, up here, Trudeau has resigned, Singh seems more interested in looking out for himself than the country, and Poilievre is waiting in the wings to make things even worse. To be fair, though, I’d still take that over Trump any day. Small mercies, I guess.

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It's 4 minutes before 2AM. I am awake, browsing Aglio Olio Recipe. 

Know what, I don't usually cook, but I think I make pretty good pasta. But then, I don't remember ever eating a bad-tasting pasta, so maybe, I just have a pretty low standards for pasta since I love it so much.

I'm so having aglio olio for breakfast. But I also want sweet style spaghetti. Let's see which one will win. I hope I won't end up with instant pancit canton. I want real food.

Oh, wow! It's 2:02 AM now.

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As I get older, I realize more and more that New Years are overrated. Don’t get me wrong—I enjoy the energy, the food, the drinks, and the celebration. But really, it’s just another day off. Another year begins, but it's just more of the same.

The same assholes run the government, the same job, same paycheck, and after the holiday, life continues at its usual pace. Sometimes, it feels like New Year’s is just another excuse for the "illuminati" to tighten their grip, raising bills for the rest of us commoners while we toast to hope.

Hope—that’s the word I’ve always associated with New Year, I still do. But hope isn’t enough. Nothing changes until the gears of action start turning. If there’s something in your life you want to change, don’t wait for a new year to begin. Start now. Of course, that’s easier said than done most of the time but meaningful change can only happen in such a way.

New Year’s may not hold all the answers, but it can still be a reminder: the power to change lies within us, not in the calendar.