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1:26AM. Nasira yung aircon. Ang init. I can't sleep. Bukas ko na iisipin ko paano kami bibili ng bago. A few days back, yung camera ng phone ko ayaw na gumana. Almost used up na rin ang memory, so... Haaaah.

Yung akala kong harmless copyright claim on my page led to 4 days of significantly low performance. I decided to delete the video. It wasn't earning that much anyway. Tokwa, I should've deleted it right when I received the claim. Exchanging visibility for miniscule shared revenue was far from worth it.

Sa February ang ika 7th month ng mga kittens. I need around 12k to have all of them spayed. 

2024 was hard. 2025 is going to be so much better. 

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Woke up early today. By "early", I meant 6:30. I was actually woken up around 3 because of damned allergies.  Oh well.

Gah! Ang bilis ng panahon. Matatapos na ang 2024. Nairaos na 10 months akong walang trabaho. Lol.

But know what, I had breakfast with my parents today. And every night, I receive hugs and 'good nights' from my niece and nephew. I cuddle with my cats, sleep and eat my hearts out, plan my future, and live in my own terms. And I still have money. I'm truly grateful.

Sa ngayon, hindi ko naman talaga alam kung paano ko aayusin ang sitwasyon ko. It's not so bad. But it's not great either. And I don't want to be just on this level. Haaaaa. Kaya ko to.

I bought perfume for rebranding para sa online shop ko. Hindi pa dumadating, pero pinost ko na for pre-order. Walang omorder. Lol. Kailangan ko pa ata ng fda registration dito. Ang mahal. Fda registered yung manufacturer, so parang redundant na need ko pa magpa fda, so ewan. Hahaha. Ang there's BIR filing also. Siguro kaya parang laging kulang ako sa oras coz I do a lot of different things at a time. 

I received a copyright notice sa isa sa mga monetized videos ko sa FB dahil sa background music. Well, di naman pinapatanggal, though isa yun sa options. I chose the revenue-sharing option. Like 20% lang sakin, the rest sa kanila na. Wahaha. Hindi man lang 50%. Pero, oh sya, sige na nga. Hindi naman ganun kalaki yun.

I love BL. I'm glad I get to earn money from recommending stuff I love. Sana one day, my earnings will get to sustainable degree. Tipong kaya na kong buhayin, ganern.

I also started some testing gig, though so far, I have only declined projects, so wala pa kong kita. Hindi pa kasi ako tapos sa training, I needed to decline.

I have online shop. My sales are growing, but still not yet on the sustainable level. So, ewan ko.

Sa ngayon, I'll do what I can with what I have. Alam kong in time ay magtathrive din ako sa mga bagay na ginagawa ko.

I send personalized messages to every package I ship out to my customers. Sabi kasi nila, yung mga bagay daw na binibigay mo sa iba, bumabalik din sayo. In my notes, I send them prayers and wishes of good health, love, joy and monetary blessings. Bumalik man o hindi, writing and sending out those notes make me happy.

I know, things are gonna get better soon. Big hug, Universe. 

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Note to self: Do not make drastic changes in your life so close to winter. Whatever it is, it can wait for spring!

Ah holidays. You're killing me. I've always hated my life, you know that. But the things that are happenning in my life right now, let's just say I'm not very pleased. It's dark and cold, I'm alone, and I have to go to bed early because I'm working very early in the morning. Not my idea of the holiday cheer they bombard me with all over the radio, TV, cellphone, etc. What's there to be cheerful about?!

I feel like Bob Crachit who keeps getting yelled at by Scrooge but he's still very excited about christmas and spending time with Tiny Tim, except that I am all dark and bitter and can't wait for this christmas business to be over. Bah humbug and all! I guess I'm more like Scrooge -  except I'm the clerk. The magic of christmas goes out pretty quickly when you have to wake up at 6 to prepare for work on a cold winter day.

If there are Ghosts of Christmases for workers bees reading this, it's a pretty good time to visit me right now... and maybe bring like a million dollars (USD please) on your way here too.

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I stopped updating my YT this week, yet the views and subscribers kept growing. It looks promising. I'd love to get back to it, but right now, I need to focus on things that are actually giving me money.

I want to learn how to edit like Molob. But heck, I don't even have time to comb my hair.

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I want a good coffee.

I bought ground coffee in Lazada with great reviews. So sad, di masarap. Despite being dark, hindi matapang, hindi rin mabango. I want good coffee. T_T

I usually drink brewed black with sugar. I'm don't like instant coffee. I'm not good with milk so I often skip creamer, but I love cappuccino. I haven't tried sb's black coffee, but their cappuccino is too mild for my taste. I think the best cappuccino I had is the one from Paper Moon. I miss their mango layered crepe cake thingy also. Ah, I miss crepe.

I've been very busy these days. I don't do face yoga anymore and I haven't exercise in ages. I do a lot of physical works in the morning though, like mopping the floor of the cats' room and all that stuff. I haven't watched tv for ages.

Haaaaa. Siguro kung hindi factor ang financial aspects e I can say na I like what I'm doing with my life now. But this is not enough. I must do more. I need to make money.

4 months ago, the pregnant neighborhood cat gave birth sa kulungan ng aso namin. We took the kittens in, and the mom too. Now we have extra 3 kittens and 1 grown cat. Mabait yung mama cat, so despite Mom only acknowledging the kittens as ours, I told her the mama cat is mine too. So yeah.

I can't have these cats get pregnant, so I'll need to have money for kapon. The kittens should be ready in 2 months. The mama cat can go anytime once I have the money. Syempre, that's extra 4 mouths to feed cat food with, so... Haaaaa. Ewan ko. Kaya ko to.

This year ang unang Feastcon na hindi ko niattendan since we started attending year 2013. Nalungkot din ako. Pero kasi, yung hotel, pagkain at Feastcon fees, I could use it to buy more important things instead. So I decided not to attend and told Mom I'd buy them Crocs for Christmas. I feel bad that I won't be able to give mom my usual 13th month salary since I'm jobless, so I'd like to at least still give them gifts.

Gusto ko nang yumaman ulet. Kawawa naman yung nanay ko.

Haaa, so basta, right now, same battle plan. I'll do all I can with whatever I have. I'm smart and talented. Syempre kaya ko to.

Wahhhhhh! Big hug, Universe.